Seeds Sprouting
Do not feel discouraged when you are not seeing results. The impact of the seeds you have planted will not surface overnight, but you must keep watering your passions and give it the light and attention it needs. Also this is not a success or failure metric, but a let’s get out of the way and start to believing in those flutters that make the heart beat.
Often times I will look back on various bodies of creative work and wonder, why didn’t I keep going? Why did I shift gears and/or stop all together. I guess in many ways I wasn’t sure if I would achieve the grand concepts in my mind so at the time it felt far better to walk away than stay. To stick with yourself and your unique ideas is not for the light hearted. It takes so much fight to stay on course.
One has to normalize the productivity steps the things that tether you to results. Keep doing the things that will bring forth the force you need within your spirit to propel you forward. For there is not a soul who will do the inner work for you to become the person you need to be to proceed. You have a stronger will than you think. Disappointment is normal and not an excuse to let go of hope. Kindly put your foot back on the gas towards your dreams and keep growing please.
This was a crazy hot day in Baltimore I think in 2017, Pat Bourque and I went to a vintage shop that supplies garments for films in Hollywood based on old Ellicott City. The shop owner agreed to loan me a bunch of garments for a fashion shoot as long as I promised to allow them to use the images. We drove around town with a car full of vintage hats, gloves, gowns and more. We capture all the content in less than 2-hrs and to this day has to be our most interesting shoot. The point of it was to show that fashion and Baltimore could be like it was in those old films. This was one of the last images for the Duchess of Baltimore shoot and I remember I needed to do what I would normally do and be natural. There you have it a lady in a red vintage dress being naturally myself.
Yesterday was a full moon and I made time for a special meditation. To my surprise, when I finished I had 3 messages about the relaunched fashion school accelerator program from past students. I know I have been working intensely to keep myself focused and driven for results, but there are also important moments of surrender and trust. I am excited for this new era for the SEW BROMO School and Elsa Fitzgerald fashion house.
In many ways, I had to put together a collection even if vintage that would inspire me in present day to enjoy the beauty of finely made fashion. I need to see that it is possible to live the film concept of elegance and sophistication from Elsa Fitzgerald.
Often I now look at images of myself as a child and pretend I am the mother to my inner child. What kind of life would I make possible for her? I would want her to play and live the full version of her dreams. I would want her to be quirky, adventurous and wildly fun.